金繕い (kintsukuroi) - the art of repairing pottery with gold or silver lacquer and understanding that the piece is more beautiful for having been broken.
I don’t know how to feel about my weight.
I’ve never weighed over 97 pounds. I don’t know whether im happy or worried.
I feel too skinny. I feel awkward in clothes. I feel tall and bony. I never buy clothes because they never fit right. But now matter what i do, i cant gain weight.
Doctors cant find out why my heartbeat is fast, or why i cant gain weight. It was assumed it was my thyroid, but they couldn’t find anything.
I just want to be happy with my body. I wish i could gain some weight. Gain boobs, or a booty.
How does that make sense? Even with low body weight, i shouldn’t gain muscle that fast. Am i not getting enough sugar? Is my body compensating for a sugar loss and make me already produce lactic acid during respiration. (It’s kinda cool how i know what’s going on) where am i getting all the protein from? I EAT LIKE SHIT RIGHT NOW.